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hello loves. it's been a long day. it's time to chill.

ALERT:

 if you don't care to read about how my day went, just scroll down to the green star thing. it marks where i start talking about Jesus.

but my day was boring, in case you semi-care.

:)

this morning, me, brantley, bo, tayler went to help with the Thursday Lunch. i had a very pleasant time, actually. not that i usually don't, it's just this time i was able to talk more with the people who came to eat. i got to have conversations with them and ask them about their lives and what was going on with them personally. it felt so real. make sense??
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after that, we came home and ate lunch. then my laptop finally came in the mail! it had been at the Toshiba Doctor's office for a few days getting "all better". :)
we cleaned at monica's a little later this afternoon, and there was a lot to clean. oh well. i guess that's why they call it a job.

this evening we ate dinner, cleaned some more around our house, and finally watched something other than Shark Week on discovery channel.
i just get tired of shark attacks sometimes, ya know??

anywho, today i've felt kind of lethargic. really tired and achy. hopefully i'm not catching something.
but, please, don't let me waste your time with my life. i really do have something important to tell y'all.

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God's been really working with me on loving people. Like really loving them. I'm still not there yet, in terms of loving people like I should. but I'm getting there. and sometimes, like Chambers said, "What we call the process, God calls the end."
I think my biggest problem is I focus way too much on the outward appearance. and not just clothes and skin color.
I think my biggest problem of that that biggest problem, is I don't take the time to get to know their heart.

i think that's why humans have such a hard time loving, and are instead judgemental and superficial. rarely do you find someone who is genuine and real. still imperfect, but they love like Christ said to love.

but i can't know every one's heart! so how do i go about loving people by just going by what I see??
or do i even worry about what i see?? do i just think of them as lost souls and longing for a Savior??
and how do i love someone who doesn't want to be loved??
how do i love the murderer who doesn't think what he did was wrong?? how do i love the liar who isn't remorseful??

and when I say love them, i think i mean "how do i get them to accept my love (Christ's love in me)".


so, doing a bit of growing in my walk with my Father! It's so exciting! It's the best thing I could ever ask for.
but i still have so many questions.


however, I know my God is faithful. He will provide answers. I will not worry.

For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matt. 7:8

“So don’t worry about these things...your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need."

Matt. 6:31-33

ok, well, i hope everyone's thursday was good!

i love you all!

:)